No, seriously. Apparently he doesn't think that's inappropriate, or weird, or abusive coming from a person in a position of power, or anything of the sort.

But that's not all. When I dodged (because god forbid I be forthright and tell him I'm not interested, thankyouverymuch), he started going about how I thought he was ugly, and how I was making a big deal out of nothing, it was just a friendly invitation, and it's not like he was in any of his classes right now, so technically, I was an ex-student. 

The guy's about my age, and has a good heart, but he's a nut-case. He has no sense of what's appropriate, is not all that connected with reality, he's egotistical and has violent outbursts. And I don't think he's attractive. Even if I did, I wouldn't go for it, because, no, just no, he's a professor at my uni. He's helped me out a lot with his courses, I might be his student again at some point. I could go on and on on why I'm not attracted to him, but it's irrelevant. He's my professor.

And then? Then he got offended. He started going about me presuming about his intentions and other shit of the sort. And guilt trips? NOT. COOL. I might have considered talking to him as friends (good guy, blah blah, and yeah, the guilt trip was working, I felt indebted), but fuck that. I will not be pressured into anything I'm not completely comfortable with, I will not be told what I'm thinking and I will not stand for anyone to try to guilt trip me and scare me into anything, much less some entitled asshole trying to force me to go out with him.

I am so fucking pissed, so fucking sick and tired of men not respecting my boundaries and my answers simply because they are mine. I'm fucking sick of of this chauvinistic country where it's OK to get angry at women because they won't fall in line. And I'm really fucking pissed that I will be forced to mend bridges and try to appease him because I can't risk him trying to make my life difficult.

Now what? Who do I tell? Who do I talk about this? He's been pushing me for a long time, he's even asked about my sex life and made veiled comments about finding love, and I was willing to give him a pass because he's had a hard life and doesn't have a great sense of proper, normal social interaction, and seriously, how stupid can I get?. But this is utterly unacceptable from anyone at all, much less from someone that has power over me, and it's what I've made a point of fighting as one of the very few feminist women in this retrograde society.

And I want to cry because I can't risk going public with this and have people turn on me. I want to cry because I'm at the bottom of the pyramid just because I was born with an uterus. It seems so many women spend half their lives with their backs against the wall, fending off abuse as best they can with no hope pf things improving.

This is so fucking unfair. And no matter how much I rage against it? I'm still backed into a corner.

I'm still scared shitless.

For all of us. But specially, specially for Americans. What does one do when these things happen?

Long time no see!

I´m sorry if I haven´t been around for your important news.  I´m just picking up where I left off, and I´m going crazy trying to catch all the wincest and wee!chesters I´ve missed. If you want to leave me a few links, I won´t complain.

( World new´s ranting. )

*sighs* Well, then. let´s get into happier news.

I want to have grandpuppies!! *beams*. Just the though gives me warm fuzzies. Dean!love and Sammy give me warm fuzzies to, but that is rather OT. I felt the need to say it anyway.

I have Photoshop again! Yey! The CS version, mind you. I´m trying to manip a delicious Sirius Black just to practise, and then I´m off to manip a Sam´n´Dean Titanic manip. Just in case you were wondering, no, I didn´t come up with that one, jewels667 did , but I think it´s a smashing idea.
So, does anyone have or can get me a big Titanic screencap? Preferably one of these, but something like this or similar can work too. I sort of need one that´s about 700 pixels and I can´t find any.

Some random things:

My boyfriend is comming to see me!!! Yey! He´ll get here on Monday!! Double Yey!!  =DDD

Classes start on Monday  =( And I can´t  miss class because the teachers know me =(( First class is Physical Chemistry. That one deserves a "well, fuck"

Mum and I have reached an unspoken agreement: I pretend I´m not having sex with boyfriend and she pretends not to know I´m having sex with boyfriend. Catholic countries, you know...

My bathroom is gross and I can´t find the courage to clean it. Ew all around.

But more important than all that:

                                                                       WHAT <scratch>THE FUCK </scratch>  IS A BNF??

I´m missing wankage and drama just because I have no idea, and yes, I want to know, because I´m nosey like that. I´m thinking BNF it´s bad?

Well, I´m alive and kicking so far. This country is so quiet it´s almost, almost boring. 

I just got to Salinas, the first city in the beaches circuit. 

To the moment I´ve discovered several things about the world and myself. The two most important ones are that there are iguanas in the parks. Like, they have iguanas instead of pidgeons.

The secong thing is that I don´t really like shrimp.

I´m off to Ecuador on Jan 15th, to backpack up to Feb 9th.

Alone. And I´ve never backpacked before.

I´m by turns excited and freaked out, and I suspect that freaked will start wining the nmore time that goes by. I ordered my books and I´m very tempted to use the 24 hour thingy that says you can get a full return for free. Or cut down on the time. Or go around crying and begging someone to go with me.

Anyone feels like backpacking around Ecuador?

Please?

On other news, we have the belly dancing performance on the 11th, we just started precticing the coreography and Patty, the teacher, just decidded that we should all dress the same. Now we have to cut and sew up a suit form the fabric that we´ll get on monday at the earliest. And we´ll be practicing every day of the next week. Owie.

In even other news, I really want the classes to be over so I can get rid of the stupid students and their inabiliy to do fractions. But I still agreed to do some private lessons for some girl because I really need the money. I need to study electricity again and I really don´t want to. *sighs* but the money...

I belive I'm almost obssesive-compulsive. I just bought most of my Christmas presents over the internet. I need daddy's (that I have to but somewhere else. I know what I'm getting him, though) and my brother's (no idea on that one). All the others are taken care off.

And yes, I'm aware it August

And I´ll cry if want to
cry if I want to
Cry if I want to

Nice weekend with one nasty finalle. Well, what the hell, at least I got chocolates...

Wow, it seems the only times I update my journal I end up whining. My life is pretty good, really. Just, you know, I changed meds and they haven´t quite kicked in fully yet. So don´t mind my angsting.